surf's up.

If everything was so-called set in stone, why did you leave me at the last minute?

I miss everything we were, but nothing we weren't.

You were everything positive in my life, and when you left it, it all came crashing down with the tide.

Nothing makes me smile more with you on my side.

I apologized for all of the things, I changed for you, but why must you insist on punishing me even further without your trust?

Why, oh why has the sun set, why has all of the stars lost their glimmer? Why is the sun overcast and the flowers wilting before me? I forgot, I lost you.

You've gone to the windy city
I'm led to believe that you blew away
Only to come back when it's settled

All I feel right now is the tingles in my fingertips
The butterflies in my stomach
The goosebumps on my skin
And my mouth widening into the form of a smile

Happiness is the smell of a new car && you have the keys :]

it's been way-y-y too long.

i still keep a private xanga, but damn, i totally lost interest in writing. then one day, i sat on my bed and started to write quotes down. i missed it, honestly. let's see if i still got it. =]

the moment i said it was the first moment i breathed.

i'm your mrs. officer, can i read you your rights?

true love is something one feels when you've been through the heartbreaks, endured the tests of time, and opened your arms to the impossible. in the end, you know it's true.

We're here, and it's now or never. and we'll never say never.

you broke her heart, and you're pleading for yet another chance;; wht makes you any better than the rest of them?

i sih we could take two steps forward and never look back.

missing you, when I'm not in your arms, leaves my heart wide open. come home, come back to me.

Loving you is second nature.

it's going to take a lot of work to be the way we were, but to be the way we are can make this work... if we try.

can you remember any of the moments without a drink in your hand? we walked the beach, we walked around in stores, we said goodbye. you left me hurt, and for that, i will never forgive you for all of it.

screw the people who hated valentine's day. it's anoter day we celebrated our love for each other.

i hate the fact you can forgive so easily.

it's been four years since the beginning of my love life, and to look back on all of it, and to see where we are at today, it takes my breath away. it was so hard to get over you, to get over the fact that my first love was truly no more, and all the sadness still captivated me throughout the days and endless nights. but still, if you asked me to be yours, after all of this, i would simply say yes. i remember is if it were yesterday. every moment we'd shared, every memory we made, and the times i know we'd never forget. i would do it all over again. and i would promise myself that it wouldn't end bitterly. still miss you, after all these years.

Bye-Bye, Beautiful. ♥

NOTE: [So basically, I am done with Marching Band for the season. Drum Majoring sucks sometimes, but you gotta love it. Expect more updates, I know ladies, I'm sorrrrry. ---->*giggle* <---- But yes, hope you enjoy it.  Many many things to come in the near future.  P.S. I got a Boyfriend. Oct. 20th. His name's Cody. Yeaaaah. Love that kid.]

I’m like a record and you’re like a record

So let’s let the DJ mix us…

With you, you’ve made me forget all the bad things in my life. All the troubles from years past, all the love you’ve given me that’s been better than anything I could ever imagine.  

You look better undressed.

Mine as well start tying the rope around my neck, because seeing you with her is like death.

Sometimes, I sit alone and just cry my eyes out at what could have been years ago. That love is long gone and I’m still comparing your kiss and your touch to him.

When I walk down our street, lights lit, snow falling, I want to just remember walking down here when it was autumn, hand in hand, laughing and smiling, I just miss you even though I’m with him.  Take me back.

As the dye runs down my face, like tattooed tears running and stumbling against my rough skin, I just realize how beat up I am.  This rouge isn’t going to come out, permanent, the box says.  Permanent like the kiss you gave me; no one is going to amount to that.

All you can have now is winter memories.  The snow, so white and innocent, but you’re lost in it.  You can’t see your true colors in this crystallized blanket.  Heaven, some call it.  It’s just a hole you can’t find your way out of.  

It’s not a walk in the park anymore, this love isn’t the way it used to be.

You may still talk to her, and that’s the reason why I don’t have trust in you. Five years, who says you can’t go back.  And I’m not going to sit and get hurt when you leave me for her, you forget what I did to be with you. Don’t do it.  You’ll regret it later.

How hard is it to not pick up the phone?  You know it’s her ringing, you know it’s her number on the caller ID, you don’t need to do this.

Sometimes, I feel like I’m being played.  Like I’m the pawn in their little game.  And the game is Heartbreaker.  I’m just hoping every night when he calls that it’s not me whose heart gets broken.

I just want to slide down my wall, and curl into a ball and let the tears stroll down my reddened cheeks.  I’m sick of the late night fights, the screaming, the insecurity.  They say to love someone you have to trust them, and this isn’t love, baby.

 You wouldn't care if the crowd was watchin', Baby.

I wear my shades at night because, well, I'm just [simply stunning].

So Many Things To Say In One Second.

Still nothing to say, yet so many reasons to go back in our minds.

And if you were wondering, you make me smile like the sun when you say the things you say.

I'm captured by the way she takes over, the way her fingers dance through your hair, it's love, for sure, oh yes it's love.

I sit here with this faint smile on my face recollecting the years that pass, and i know that i should feel something, but i don't. okay, i feel numb. i feel alone without my guiding light that used to be, but it's all faded and quiet. you can either love me or leave me, but i wouldn't feel loved if i was alone, so you did leave me.

If I let you go, I'd let everything go.

When I saw you walk away, what hurt the most was the slow motion look back, and then the tear ran down my cheek...

Drip, Drop. Drip, Drop. ♥